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December
1999
"How
I Learned TM"
The
Rose and the Laughing Man
by Deborah Fineblum Raub
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Moving through the long hallways of
the University of Maryland Student Union in early November, 1971, my eye
was caught by a poster. On a bright white background there was a single
rose, juxtaposed against the photograph of a man, his black beard
cascading over his white gown. As I drew closer, I could see that the man
wasn’t just smiling, but laughing, as at a delicious joke, his head
thrown back in pure glee.
I’d seen that look before, and
suddenly I recalled where. A friend from the drugstore where I worked
part-time had a husband with a rather strange practice: Every evening when
he came home from work, he retreated to a comfortable chair in the living
room and sat with crossed legs and closed eyes for what seemed an
unnaturally long period of time. If I was visiting, my friend and I would
stay in the kitchen and whisper so as not to disturb him.
My attitude was, I recall, one of
mild distrust. What was this odd ritual? Why did he need it to relax? Wasn’t
it like the drugs so many of the kids I knew were into? And what about it
made him act so happy, afterwards, not unlike the man with the long beard
in this poster?
I had some vague sense that the thing
my friend’s husband did was called TM and this laughing man must be
doing it too. Then I strolled off to the student union’s TV to keep my
1:00 appointment with All My Children.
But something was to happen that
would alter the way I’d look at that poster. Over the following weekend,
I walked home with my friend and, as she unlocked the door of her
apartment, we could faintly make out the silhouette of her husband sitting
in his special chair. We’d evidently caught him by surprise and, as our
pupils grew accustomed to the
darkened room, I could see that his eyes had opened. It was those eyes,
looking for all the world as if they’d been called back from somewhere
very far off, that I couldn’t stop wondering over. It
was those eyes that gave me the first sense of how profound an experience
was this TM.
So, on Monday, instead of rushing
past the poster with the rose and the laughing man, I stopped and wrote
down in my notebook the date and time of
something called an Introductory Lecture. Then I called my younger sister,
Tobi, who was home on a break from college and told her about my friend’s
husband’s strange habit and about the look in his eyes, and about this
Introductory Lecture. She listened quietly, then said she’d pick me up.
Instead of finding Maharishi in
a white robe, there was a young man in a jazzy pair of madras slacks and a
blue knit shirt. Introducing himself as Terry, a teacher of TM, he talked
about thoughts bubbling up, sketched a few on the blackboard, then
explained where thoughts came from, a subject none of my psychology
courses had ever tackled. When he invited the 20 or so college students
and the couple of old people (no doubt in their 30s), to return for a
Preparatory Lecture, Tobi and I agreed to do so, without hesitating. We
could think a thought. It sounded easy. And I kept remembering my friend’s
husband’s eyes.
The Preparatory Lecture was a few
days later. There was more talk of thoughts,
but details too, about mantras, and how the meditation worked and what
makes it unique from other mental techniques. There was to be no drug use
before we learned to meditate, an announcement that sent an unhappy ripple
of muttering through the room. But Tobi and I were the first to sign up,
after pondering where we’d find the "steep" initiation fee:
$35.
It was a crisp November morning. Tobi
was driving our parents’ station wagon through the maze-like streets of
our nation’s capital, and we climbed the old steps bearing flowers and
oranges and apples and cotton hankies. The house that was home to the TM
center stood on a dignified old tree-blessed street. This ancient mansion
had a stately tall staircase running down its spine. And it was up those
stairs that Tobi followed Terry; she being the less nervous of the two of
us had volunteered to go first. And it was down them that she floated some
20 minutes later, wearing a broad, almost surprised, smile. My turn had
come. So up we went.
The learning, looking back 28 years
on the moment, was sweet, the moment redolent of flowers and oranges, of
journeys into uncharted thought territories, of questions nervously asked
and softly answered.
The next three nights of checking,
back on campus, was time enough for all our questions, and Terry’s
answers. I sensed I’d taken some giant step in my life, though Tobi
seemed to understand more of what we were experiencing than I did. She was
reading everything she could get her hands on and, within a few short
months, was making plans to become a TM teacher herself. She eventually
taught our parents, youngest sister and grandmother to meditate, and went
on to teach all around the world.
None of our subsequent travels will
ever diminish the joy of discovery the two of us shared in those autumnal
days in 1971, days destined to enrich our lives for all time as they
opened to us, each in our own way, the field of all possibilities.
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Deborah Fineblum
Raub is a staff writer for the Democrat
and Chronicle
in Rochester,
New York.
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